Day 15 - Your Celebrity Crushes

Obviously I went an extra mile for this post. I made a collage of my beautiful babies:

My future husbands

1. Lee Hyuk (조빈) is the gorgeous half of the Korean duo NORAZO which debuted way back in 2005. He is currently known for having such an amazing 18 level octave vocal range and just being the sexy eye candy.
During his pre-debut days, his father was actually against his dreams of becoming a singer. He didn't have enough money for classes too, so Lee is said to have walked to Youngdong bridge so he could sing out loud without distracting anybody. He was also said to have frequent subway stations too as he practices his vocals as the train approaches. That's all in the past now as he had come a long way.

2. Jin Qin (金勤) has been a huge favorite of mine ever since I saw his cute smiles in Skip-Beat! and Hayate the Combat Butler. Unfortunately he only plays minor roles despite having good acting skills. I really am fuming, I mean he's so hot and adorable in his Weibo account (of course I'm following him). But anyways, I'm happy he was able to get himself into successful Taiwanese dramas, maybe he'll get his big break soon.

3. Satoshi Ohno (大野智) An artist, singer, host, actor, dancer, deep-sea fisherman, and the leader of the popular boy group Arashi. Could I ask for more?

4. Tom Hiddleston. Let's face it, Loki was just one of those unknown villains outside the world of comic-book fans. But when this guy wore the green and gold costume and smiled maniacally on the big screen, everybody just fell for the evil guy. Oh yeah, he went to Eton too, as well as University of Cambridge. When it comes to his appearance, he's just flawless:
Yes, I'm a Hiddlestoner.

5. Jensen Ross Ackles is another celebrity crush! I love Supernatural, and before that I was hooked on Smallville, so loving this guy is no surprise. It's almost impossible to imagine him and Dean Winchester as different persons since it's as if he always in character outside the show.

6. Alfredo James "Al" Pacino. The younger version or his present day self, I salute this man. My mother loved the movie Scarface which I only appreciated when I finally watched it. Then came Godfather  which became the final nail on my neutrality coffin, and I was transformed into a giggling fangirl.

To sum up everything:

Days 12, 13 and 14- Your thoughts on drugs and alcohol

Day 12 - A picture of the place where you were born
It's currently impossible since my hometown is miles away. I'm not even sure if the hospital still exists.

Day 13 - Discuss your first kiss
Imaginary

Day 14 - Your thoughts on drugs and alcohol
Alcohol's alright, especially the light and tasty stuff. I hate beer though. But since I'm not really what others call as a social (yep not even close) drinker, I'm not in the position to really judge the beverage or the people drinking it.

However for drugs, I blame the persons using them carelessly. Marijuana sounds OK, the most common ones are actually useful in the field of medicine, so I truly am annoyed at how guys tend to abuse these drugs. Plus, being on the road to self-destruction is really sad to behold too. If these drugs were left alone, I highly doubt they would be even illegal. Such is life, there's no turning back now.

Day 11 - Your Biggest Fear

Trypophobia

The fear of holes.

FUCK FUCK GOOSEBUMPS

I began noticing this "fear" of mine when I was still in high school. I hate seeing irregular holes in walls, pancakes, drawings or even imagining them. Makes me feel nauseated and wanting to get away from those ugly-as-sin craters as soon as possible. I never really thought much about it through the years but with the help of the ultra-reliable internet, I was able to discover that I am not alone. Apparently it's commonly called Trypophobia and despite being treated as an unofficial phobia, a lot of people actually accepted it as part of their list if fears.
I have found my family.

The best part is as recently as three months ago, Trypophobia is considered by psychologists as an 'invention', or in kinder words, 'a new and uncategorized' phobia. Technically they were right. But just this September, a study from the University of Essex considered that it may have been an old surviving instinct, a natural biological reaction as the brain associates the holes with danger.

Sounds legit. But this is still my number one fear so far. I can't even begin to tell you about those fucking lotus pods, and those fucking photoshops of lotus pods on a person's skin.

GOD I HATE THEM

Days 8, 9 and 10!

Day 8 - ten things you’d like to say to ten different people, without using names
I'm usually frank to people regardless of consequences. This habit of mine makes it hard for me to befriend others, but at least I don't keep things to myself. So all the things I needed to say has been said already so I don't think I'll need this anymore.

Day 9 - your favorite blog
Too many to mention. I've been lurking in the internet since forever and it owuld take a long time for me to finish putting the all my fave links here. However I could share the blogs I'm following in Google, so if you have free time, have a look at my list here.

Day 10 - a picture of your favorite relative

My aunt and Grandma! =)

Day 7- talk about your idol and how they influence you

Idols who influenced me? Eh, I idolize tons of guys and gals out there, but I don't think I worship their footsteps enough to create a teeny tiny bit of influence in me. I mean, I don't see any improvement or resemblance on myself that could be compared to those people. But for the sake of content, I will just have to enumerate my fave people, regardless of effect. Inspiration time:

Jonathan Carroll, I absolutely love this guy, his books are the best thing that ever made its way to Earth. One of my serious frustrations in life was that his books don't get the attention they deserve, and when I say attention, I mean becoming top bestseller in every country with movie adaptations. He's that good. The way he writes makes me want to meet his characters in real life. He's also notorious for the weird things that's happening inside his novels too. Like Neil Gaiman said, Jonathan Carrol "has the magic" 

Audrey Hepburn! She died the year I was born. Yep a constant disappointment. Anyway just absolutely adore her, she's really beautiful, the epitome of a woman's timeless elegance. Even during her later years, she's still stunning. In the time where plastic surgery is a total stranger, natural beauties like her truly shine.

Natalie Portman makes this list too. Incidentally, she looks like Audrey hahaha. This time however, it's not only her beauty I admire, but her brains. Wait I'm not saying I don't like Audrey Hepburn's brains too, it's nt like that, it's just that Portman's is a little bit on higher tier compared to most humans. A research assistant at Harvard, fluent in five languages and has also pursued graduate studies, all the while making movies. Like whoa girl, just whoa.

Michio Kaku. Cool guy, I've always been delighted with the notion of parallel universes and the Quantum physics. He made me love this complicated part of science and very understandable. People should try to listen to him once in a while.

As for now, these are my idols. I'm sure I still have a few more but these guys just make it to the top spot.

Day 6 - your all time favorite movie

It may sound cliche to some of you but I absolutely worship The Godfather.

My love story with the film began when I read Mario Puzo's book of the same name. It's a good novel and I realized that I need to watch the movie adaptation immediately. Fortunately a friend of mine gave me a copy and I finally saw it. The Godfather has been all over the media for many years now, dubbing it as one of history's best movies ever produced, so I'm not entirely ignorant of its existence. However since I already know what to expect after reading the book, watching every scene and seeing the characters come to life makes the experience a hundred times better.

What I love most about The Godfather was the way they portrayed family loyalty. Marlon Brando gave an incredible portrayal of Vito Corleone, especially in showing genuine concern for his sons and acquaintances.
Plus, Al Pacino looks so pretteh in this film. I don't understand why the filmmakers were reluctant to have him as Micheal. I mean looking at his face (and his height) no one would think he could assassinate a bunch of mafia bosses, but he did and he was positively effective that way.

What's not to like?

I have tons of favorites when it comes to movies, but I have this feeling that The Godfather will reign over my heart for quite some time ;)

Day 5 - discuss your feelings on the word “love” and the way it’s used in today

Love is so freaking broad. It is one word that constitutes a never ending horizon of an ocean. It could pertain to a love of an old man to his dog companion, the love of a mother feels while watching her son play happily with friends, the love of a sophomore feels for that senior, well you get the idea. Oftentimes however, love could also be connected to false promises, broken hearts and letting go.

A man may whisper "I love you" to his partner one peaceful morning then by afternoon, said the same three words to his mistress. A young girl might swear upon the heavens and the earth that she absolutely "love" this rock band she's currently listening to, but changes opinion upon hearing a song by another artist. A woman could also say that what she's feeling is "true love" but could not proclaim it to the world since the man she fell for is already taken.

Life is not perfect, so is love. Thus I am not aggressively against the careless way some people use the word these days. Everybody wants to hear it anyway. Who knows, maybe every time it is uttered as a form of deception or false assurance, a small sprinkle of honesty is spoken along with it, so not all "lies" are really lies.

In the end it's not the words but the actions and the intentions that matter most.

Day 4 - your most significant childhood memory

How do you exactly know when a childhood memory is significant? I'm not sure sure what to include since my childhood had been a fortunate and happy one. Life was way better those days.

Well let me tell you about me and grandfather instead. My grandfather was one of the kindest man that ever lived. He's somewhere in heaven right now but I will never forget him. He was a gentle man, too generous and a grandfather to the core. My favorite memory with him was when he visited us for a few days when I was around eight years old. After a whole busy day at school, I always make it a point to arrive home early and watch Dragon Ball Z.

Afternoon ritual for kids of all ages

When my grandpa was present we watched it together. We were both definite Goku fans. An episode will crawl itself until night time, and my mother will always talk how amused she was when she saw the two of us with eyes glued to the screen like two toddlers. Oftentimes, grandpa will fall asleep unnoticed too, even if it's in the middle of one of the eternal battle scenes. Also this is the reason why I give sentimental value to Dragon Ball Z. Anime works in mysterious ways. This memory didn't gave me a dramatic lesson in life and realizations and shit, it is significant simply because it's one of the most treasured memories I have.

Day 3 - your thoughts on religion

I was born and raised as a Catholic in a Catholic country. I am neither thrilled nor sanguished by my religion though. For me, I don't want to be pulled down by the traditions of the church I grew up in, I respect all other religions, as well as their own gods or their own version of God. What matter to me most is not how you worship, but on who you are as a person.

I could say I am devoted to Him in my own way, I believe that everything in life has a reason and as much as I could, I try to have a strong faith despite all the shortcomings I'm getting. However, I don't believe that the Bible is perfect, I don't trust priests, I don't go to Mass every Sunday. Some people might say that I'm doing it wrong, I'm not traditional, someone even told me that I'm an athiest. I must be the first ever believer who is at the same time an atheist. Cool logic bro, very informative.

Why? Do I have to go to church every single Sunday to be called a good Christian? Do I need to say my confessions weekly? Do I have to shout out to everyone that I memorize the Bible and all the names of the saints to be a good person? Due to that kind of logic, I decided to be a little silent on how I do things with God. 

In conclusion, religion for me are just versions of beliefs, I accept all differences and every religion has its own awe-inspiring elements as well as bad sides. No religion is above another. I believe in God, but I don't like to treat my faith as a public display or a decoration. My faith is a personal relationship with Him, and noone could take that away from me.

Day 2 - your thoughts on death

A good reminder to all humans out there: We are all going to die. So stop being a special snowflake and act like death is a distant star in the unreachable heavens above, waiting to be discovered because in reality, it's a fucking meteor that could fall on you anytime anywhere.

That pretty much sums up my idea about death, I believe I could die in any way but I accept this mystery and talk about it in a casual way. Unlike those superstitious bastards who refrain from talking about death like it's Voldemort's name, I am already laying down my plans for my funeral.
Songs to be played:

1. Koe by Arashi 
2. Be with You by Arashi
3. Gangnam Style by Psy
4. Carry on my Wayward Son by Kansas
5. Konseki by Ninomiya Kazunari

Haha, the third and the fourth are merely for the lolz, though I want the Japanese songs to be played with English translation to be shown to everyone, then everyone would feel the pain and the memories along with the words of a foreign music. Booyah

Why should people be afraid of it in the first place? It happens to everybody, like we are born to die right? In fact and we actually welcome the fact of our existence's ultimate destination, we began to appreciate life more. We will live life to the fullest when we know that we only live on borrowed time and bound to return it someday.

Death is not something to be feared or hated. Let it be a reminder how beautiful life is and not taking it for granted.

Day 1 - your favorite picture of yourself and one interesting fact for every year you've been alive

Look into my eyes.

I don't know why but I just love staring into this pic. Maybe I just love the way my eyes look. This was taken years ago and my hair was still long.

By the way, here are 19 interesting (I hope) facts about me:

1. I love Kitkat, I could finish a box in one day if possible.
2. I still have my childhood stuff toy with me (nope not a teddy bear) She's a stuffed sheep and apparently is as old as I am.
3. Talking about toys, I never had a teddy bear. Seriously.
4. I hope to visit India someday, they have one of the most colorful cultures ever.
5. I like eating anything that has cheese on it.
6. Which means I like lasagna too.
7. Ever since I was 13, I've only been using only three pairs of shoes.
8. I collect books. I've already acquired so many titles my mother had them transported to a relative of ours for safekeeping.
9. I don't trust strangers.
10. I'm a fast reader. I finished reading ASOIAF in less than two months. A 400-page book could be finished in one afternoon.
11. I am moody when it comes to drawing
12. Nobody seems to like the music I love. =(
13. I'm a 4chan lurker, fave boards: /po/, /cgl/, /gd/ and /x/
14. I love basketball, and tends to swear while watching games
15. I don't know how to swim
16. I love singing but singing curses me to the deepest hell.
17. I have three moles on my left arm, and three more moles on the right arm and they are placed almost parallel to each other.
18. I love dogs and cats.
19. But I've never been to a real zoo before. You know, I haven't seen an elephant, lion, tiger or a giraffe in person.